No I'm Not On Drugs.

This post may be the most random thing you were ever read! But I swear it's not my fault. Cara wants us to blog about one of the following:

1. Talk about your latest crush (hee hee, I sound like a tweeny magazine!). But seriously, I want to hear about cute guys and/or girls working in coffee shops, etc. I will enjoy it :D

2. If you were to have any themed cake for your birthday, what would it be? And don't say gluten-free Zanblam, that is not a theme! <3

3. Tell me about your day in great detail. What you were wearing, if you ate anything yummy. And I want lots of detail about the weather!

So I've decided I can only really do number two cause things are going well with a crush and I don't want to jinx it and I can't really tell you about my day cause I've only been up half an hour but it's sunny and it's my birthday so yaaaayy!!

So a themed cake? Well I already had a themed cake made for my 7th birthday and it was made to look like Darth Maul from Star Wars Episode I. It was rather awesome! the horns stuck out and everything....yes I know I'm a geek but remember i was seven! But I always dreamed that my perfect birthday cake would be a specialy made Buffy the Vampire Slayer one! How awesome would that be?!?! It would have green icing as grass and have edible crypts and characters and vampires that were standing on the top!! Maybe one day when I'm rich and famous I'll find the world's best cake maker and get him to make me it. I remember the cake for my cousins' 21st was BRIGHT pink. Just imagine what that must have done to me! Bouncing off the walls me thinks. Julie found the recipe for a 3D penguin cake online and it looks awesome. We're tempted to make it for Cara's birthday cause she's scared of penguins. HEHE.

Yeah but there's my random post for you Cara hope you love it. And yeah IT'S MY 18TH BIRTHDAY TODAY SO WOOOOOOO!! And yes I was aware the caps were on so :P

You Know You Love Me xoxo

A Depressing Post From Jamie

So today I went to my friend's 18th birthday. I haven't seen her in about five years so it was bound to be a bit awkward but to be honest it just really got me thinking.

When she came down the stairs not only was she super tall but was really beautiful, I mean I've known her from the day I was born so I always thought she was beautiful. But it was still kind of a culture shock to see this beautiful 18 year old girl standing infront of you when you can still remember both of you trick-or-treating as Aladdin and Tinkerbell at age four. I know this shouldn't get me as upset as it has but to be honest it just had me kind of afraid. Afraid that someone you've known your whole life can stand infront of you as a stranger.

I suppose it's just kinda a fear of abandonment and that before I know it everything will just slip through my fingers like sand, I know this won't be the case but a while back my best friend just completely cut me off! I gave up so much of my life just so we wouldn't fall apart and she threw it back in my face and I'll admit it kinda destroyed a little bit of me that I'll never get back. It's been over a year and she hasn't even made the effort to continue being friends. I'm not gonna say I regret moving to the same school as she did cause it was that or the chav school down the road and I met lots of amazing people who I love but it still hurts alot when I think of all we've been through and realize it means nothing to her. Also training to be an actor has made me realize that if I make the big time I'll never have a normal life and I'll have to give up soo much just for my carreer. I mean acting is one of the only things I'm truely passionate about and love doing it but there is a chance that it could break down more friendships as we grow apart.

I'm sorry that this is a really depressing post but it's how I feel right now and really had to vent it out. I hope you guys know that I really love you all and it would hurt to lose any of you but hopefully that'll never happen.

You Know You Love Me xoxo

Jamie's Day Out....Not to be confused with the film Baby's day out!

I think you can actually see the cobwebs gathering on this blog! Oh well!

Today was a fun little mini gathering at the Edinburgh Festival! Which of course invloved getting up early! (grr damn body clock that loves my bed too much). But anyway Julie and I headed off to get the coach up, but popped into town first to get Lorcan's passpoet. We were the first to get there until David and Sophie arrived. We sat down and chatted till Cara arrived and of course there was alot of hugs and love all around. We were sitting at Costa (well I was standing cause Cara stole my chair!) And you know the way when you see someone out of the side of your eye and think it's someone you know? Well that hapenned to me only on the second look I realised it WAS someone I knew it was Lorcan!! Without thinking I had pure yelled "OH MY GOD!!" Making the others turn around and see him and be all "Oh Lorcan is here. What are you doing here?" and all that shizz. Speaking of shizz. That's who arrived next, Fiona as she is known to most people! lol Love ya Fi!

When the others all got there we went about the Royal Mile to look at the street acts and collect the leaflets for shows that we could go see. There was a good act that a guy did which involved; Knives, fire, a bed of nails and a fat guy. (Don't ask) But it was super cool and Kerr got a hug off the guy who tried to mount him! Isn't it Kerr that is the whore? Anyway Kerr and I decided to see who could get the most hugs and he won by three! See if that guy dressed as Iron Man had hugged me I sooo woulda won! But nnnooo!

So we headed down to Cara's student union where she works, which was awesome, just saying. And geuss who we saw? Simon Amstell!! Yes THE Simon Amstell from Never Mind The Buzzcocks! At this point we all turned into crazy people with Fiona and Kerr stalking him and Me asking Cara if I can go lick his hair....Don't judge me. But then he went away and we were sad and Fiona wouldn't shut up about it, for realz! Yeah Cara and I kept saying For Realz all day, I don't know why but we did so get over it or I'll steal your hamster! Oh yeah I went there! So we hung out in Cara's other student union which was across from the E4 Udderbelly!! And Man was that a huge purple upside down cow or what? So we just hung out and of course again my sex life (or lacking of such) was brought up in conversation several times thank you guys very much! But then Cara had to go to work and I got all sad.

After that Fiona, the square root of Cara squared and Sophie had to go get the train so we decided to take them there....but we got lost....4 times! And then I got all lost by myself and was all afraid and stuff but then I found everyone! Woo! See? happy endings and all that shizz. So those three left and we, in true gathering style, hung in starbucks for ages, where Kirsty and I worked up and ellaborite story about how the Starbucks people didn't like us bringing food in so they kidnapped Darren and poured hot coffee on him and stuck Bagettes up places they're not meant to go. And then we all got the bus home and everything was all good! Except Iron Man didn't hug me so I yelled "Spiderman is better!" And that totally showed him.

And now it's all late and stuff but just to say thanks guys for a fun day out cause I love hanging with you all!

Oh yeah just to say I'm 18 in 8 days!! wooo! Then I'm going to Summer In The City then when I get back onwards to Shetland!! Gonna be great fun! Also Me and Ceidiog have totally already planned a Desperate Housewives/ Gossip Girl sleepover so we can all giggle and be drunk and such and watch America's best outports!

Bye ya'll! xoxo